i dont know why
but im feeling really sad ryt now
i try ..so hard just to stand out like how i used to be..
then...Ankeel keeps bugging me because..sometimes he's just..too close..
so...when i dont answer him..he says i ignore him...i just..wanted to be alone..
he..keeps telling me wat to do..
i dont know wat to do anymore..
Jessica is gone...my bf didnt show up..
i miss him...
and..wouldnt he have the time to call me? he's..on his holiday..
did i do anything??
i think im gaining weight
my parents have adults over for dinner..lots..
and my parents want me to perform
i have to admit..i AM good..but..im just not in the mood to playing those songs again..
so sad and sappy on the piano..i heard my mom crying when i was playing it...that was after mom n dad ditched me.
and..at the vry beginning of this song...there's this phonecall from this kid's mom, and its like
"hey justin, this is ur mother, how are u doin, you sounded really uptight last time..it made me nervous..and i just wanna make sure u are really ok,...just wanna see if u were checked in ur medications...you know i LOVE YOU...c yaaa... bubye"

i dno..it...i dno..

kinda sad..

Jess left...now..im an outcast of my school...n i spend .. some nights crying..holy..that sounds pathetic..but..im in that mood right now

I miss my boyfriend...kinda upset thinking "why did he call me? ...he's on holiday..right? doesnt he have time for me?" i dno..
im also..paranoid that im 12 ..and he thinks im in 8th grade..and cuz i told him i was 13..when he first talked to me.

So..i have got one page of math to do..and i havent done it yet..
Sinclair..is like...not telling me wats wrong..
lol
i was tearing up cuz my mom called me honey, or sweeti, or dear.. when she begged me to play the piano...
i was also tearing up cuz this FREAK from SLB..was staring at me with a big smile and mouth wide open...5 inches away from my face...cuz..it just was soo fucking scary..

right now..my back hurts like hell...n i feel like shit..
Ryan is right.....i wanna die..



kk
bye
where's that knife..

diyana


ooh look..another comment from dhika! :D

Current Location: home...
Current Mood: :'(
Current Music: Hate Me - Blue October

haha...
all my passwords are i luv dhika..
i do!
i know...just like wes, conor, and joe..but..
this is different!!
austin was gonna ask me out...omfg...ass...he thinks i like him...
anyways...i have...like........3 sites

Friendster
Myspace
and..Live Journal

I have another one..but i have to check it....and find it...it was really cool

kk

i have 2 myspace accounts..
one is...


debz_catz@hotmail.com


and the other one is


debzy_catzy@hotmail.com


if ppl wanna find me...look for those 2 email adresses..
um....live journal...search..
d1y@n@_h3r3

for and..on friendster...just search for debz_catz@hotmail.com

urm...more news later...ok...wtf..ppl need to get LIVE JOURNAL!!

c ya guyz l8r
lol...when exams are OVER!!!

...hee hee.....im really trying to keep this inside...but...


I LOVE DHIKA!!! *scream*
*faint*
...mmmmmm
*sigh*
hmmmm...theres soo many things to say.....!!!!1

should i??
guess i should..
or not.
ok fine..i will
umm
OMGSH!! 
...where do i start!
he..says im beautiful...and wow..his ex is like.....bleh...no offense..
he's really cute when he looks into my eyes...(sorry..cant help being cheezy)
but its true...when we look at eachother...i mean...i dont even know how to say it...his laugh..its cute
he's CUTE!
he just really knows how to please a girl.
i told him im 13 god dam it
..URGH!
i told him i would like to go for a ride on his motorbike...sometime...
and ...hangout at Dinan's house...
or the library...he's soo cute..
especially when he tilts his head....
and when he says cheezy things..and says he doesnt want me to get hurt.....
he's so protective..but yeah...anyways....
he texts me these really sweet messages saying
"i love U so much, i promise i wont break Ur heart."
or "i love U so much sweeti.."
or.."anything for U, babe"
....

sry

but! thats all i have in my mind@!!!
wonder why we dont talk alot...i told him ive just got alot of things on mind...bout
school...my friends..my parents..how they'd react...i just dont want them to freak...especially....the boys at my school....
should i tell the girls at my school? should i not??
theyre going to beat me up.....well...call me bitch and all....
but, heck i am a bitch...at least a mature one.....
dhika really doesnt want me to move...but...i want to run away from all..the fucking teenage dram at my school....
the boys suck so hard....and...urgh...
SARAH DINAN!! TALK TO ME!!
i could have a breakdown...but i..look really horrible when i do..
i gotta run...dhika just texted me
see u guyz later! bye!!
comment, text, email, or IM!!

Current Location: at home...
Current Mood: nervous
Current Music: Keep Your Hands Off My Girl